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I miss ladies night.

2012-02-09T23:18:00.001+08:00

It feels good to party once awhile on weekdays, especially ladies night! Haven't been to ladies night since I started at VASIN, it has been 8 fucking months, unbelievable. I had a fucking good time last night! The only spoiler is that I cannot drink as much as I do on weekends! But, bea was making all of us drink by stressing us with 'you know my standard'. Tsk. Okay, goodnight for now. (:

let me sum up the wonderful cny!

2012-01-24T22:35:00.004+08:00

gonna do a short & quick post for cny!

okay, whatever la. the year of dragon felt a lil' different somehow & where. it was rather peaceful & simple this year. no rush no rush, everything is just bout taking your time & having enough sleep. i really enjoyed the feeling and had a great time. thou, everything is quite boring somehow. photos now! (:

we had our reunion dinner at home this year with two rascals. my mum cooked a simple fare & all of us gathered & sat together.. the last time that this happened was quite long ago. (Y)

CNY Day 01: nothing much for day 01. basically, i was working. headed home after work & rest till evening before heading to granny's. stayed till late & went home. hee. nice, no rush no rush.

my uncle has always been the banker, it's really enjoyable to have him around. he is totally hilarious.

zen was flirting with my brother thru out cny. & when we asked if they wanna come home with us, zen was shouting loudly: 'i wanna sleep with korkor..' made all of us LOL-ed. it does not sound appropriate when she said that.

cheers to the year of dragon! (:

was kinda proud of myself when i gave a token of my appreciation (red packets) to my grandma & grandmother. i cannot imagine my life without them (: i'm so looking forward to day 15 of cny, which means steamboat again. heehee. i'm turning 24 next year, oh dear. anyway, i'm really looking forward to treating myself with a brand new camera & a good watch in 2012. goodluck with that!

i'm super dreading work tomorrow! old V is gonna be back and on my back. blah blah blah. _|_

lonely

2012-01-23T14:45:00.004+08:00

my CNY outfit (: loving my bright red top. hee.

feeling kinda lost & left out now, hate this.
need to get rid of this feeling asap.

A day at USS!

2012-01-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

hello. i had a long sunday. this photo just makes me wanna LOL. i've a love/hate friendship with my friends. okay, this photo proves that we are all moronic. will blog more about it when quack quack post the photos up (:

'please stay'

2012-01-15T00:18:00.002+08:00

i wonder when will i stop being an asshole? a bad friend?

i'm not a good friend at all. i sucks. i think i've never appreciated anyone that has crossed path with me. well, you're not wrong. i've always given everyone the impression that i cannot be bothered with you fucking off from my life. how should i put it? not that i don't treasure you people. deep down inside my heart, i treasure & love everyone of you.

it's just that i've the tendency of pushing someone away whenever he/she gets close to me. i don't know how to keep them close to my heart. my mouth is made of shit, so whatever i say is just gonna be like shit & very irritating to your ear. probably, i just didn't like it when people get too close or nice with me. i'm an ass, sure thing. i've tried keeping someone close to me, but i've pushed her away too. it's just an automatic reaction from me. very auto.

i never like to show anyone the soft side of me. thru the years, i've grown. i used to be a crybaby for every small little thing. i think i've hold onto my tears so badly, since the day i promised myself not to cry so easily. i think i'm overdoing it alrdy, cause i've been pushing too many people away in my life..

& i've never taken the initiative to make anyone stay in my life..

my first weekend in 2012

2012-01-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

my first week in 2012 was pretty well-spent.
the photos are going from the latest to the oldest.
went to powerhouse with bea & xy and a few more friends, it wasn't that bad.
but, i guess the whole party ended up quite awkward. LOL. okay, quackquack was in shocked. hahhs.

this year chinatown are damn fucking packed. we have to squeeze, like really squeeze thru every lane. quite like it still, heehee. my favourite hangout every cny.

handmade mushroom soup from my bbf, so touched that she sent this all the way to my block. it's so yummy! & i had it for breakfast before going to work on thursday morning! love love love you! *muack

& on 02.01.2012..

we went to visit meihar, the 01.01.2012 baby! she is so cute, would love to carry her in my arms, but she is sound asleep. shall wait for the 1st month. hee. anyhow, i feel like i wanna embrace motherhood as well. i mean the ability to give birth is a gift from god to all females, isn't it? how nice to carry your own baby inside your tummy, feel their heartbeat, it's an amazing connection between you & your child. that's the only person you'll ever wanna protect more than your own life or anything else.

HAPPY 2012! spent the day with my fanily, having high-tea & irritating cantonment sisters. hee.

time flies & i'll be 23 very soon. goodness. i dread that. i haven't achieve alot, in fact, nothing in 2011. hmmm. need to set my resolution after CNY & stay focus focus focus.

on a side note, my work wasn't as smooth. i need to fucking get myself off from deadlines. my boss has been giving me shit. recently, she has sent me down to collect a hamper that's as tall as me. not really as tall as me, about the same. i was in dress, can you fucking believe it? i swear she is a fucking pyscho. i don't care bout what you do or how particularly nice you're to everyone except for me. but, for god's sake, treat me like a human or just show that basic respect that every human being deserve.

i'm not pissed off, just though that i deserve better than here? definitely, no doubts bout that. sometimes, i feel a tinge of sadness for this old lady, she is old enough to be my granny. but, she is still holding onto everything she has achieved in her life so badly. comparing to my granny, of course, my granny is 100 times more fortunate than her. for my granny had the greatest love from my grandfather, her children & her grandchildren. & i believe that's what matters most in everyone's life.. ♥

my dad is off to work at this hour. be safe, dad (:

last hour of 2011

2012-01-02T00:03:00.001+08:00

A really simple meet-up with my friends for new year's eve, dinner at PS Cafe & just stroll down orchard road. Was really enjoying every moment spent. But. But. But. Shuxian just have to fucking ruin it because of a pair of shoe. I think she gave her best too, she cried like 2012 is coming & the world is gonna fucking burn her down or an tsunami attack is on it's way to drown her. Fuck it, it's only a pair of shoe. I think she worshipped us all too much that she even want our opinion so badly that she cried when we did not answer her. You know what? I'm gonna make her buy a 5inch heels since our opinion matters so much. You will see.

Scapegoat.

2011-12-30T08:58:00.001+08:00

I mentioned before, what would you do if your dreams are suffocating you? Will you choose to hang on or give up? I cannot deny how much I love my current job scope & I know that's what I want for now. I wouldn't mind working this line for the rest of my life. However, I realised that I've been dragging myself to work everyday. This is bad. The thought of getting blamed for every single wrong thing just saddens me. It was so bad that my superior has threatened to make me pay for something that I'm partially at fault. I'm not saying that I'm not wrong, but you cannot just push the entire fucking blame to me.

If your job is some thing that you love, but it tearing you apart every single day. Shouldn't you just let it go? Why bother to even holding them back together? Isn't it the same as loving a person? Deadlines, e-mails & working under someone who blames you for everything that is wrong, what's the fucking point? Is not that I can't take the stress, I can. But, I don't wanna be the scapegoat forever. Stress & being the scapegoat are two different issue. I don't care if she is fucking biased or she scolds me.

I find myself happier in service line, even a small thank you makes my day. Time to let go & move on? I'll know it's time for my next post.

sucks

2011-12-21T23:09:00.001+08:00

i'm about to die. who can save me?

royal caribbean

2011-12-14T11:00:00.006+08:00

has not been blogging diligently, just too busy with my daily routine.

work, eat, hanging out with friends & nothing else.

was too lazy to even step out of my house during weekends.

went for family trip from 09-12 December, some photos during the cruise.

day 1

while waiting for the show to start,

day 2 - penang tour + formal night

i was pretty excited cause we are going to penang for a short city tour.

but, everything turns out to be very bad. the tour guide was bad bad bad.

she seems like she was reading from her book. the history of Penang was interesting.

but, the way our guide is just three letters, BAD.

penang laksa. i did not eat at all, not even taste it.

i was just very irritated bout everything there.

i'm a sucker for mpx items, and have influenced shuxian to buy with me!

our dress for dinner are all from mpx. (Y)

day 3

the elephant below was from our stateroom attendant.

he is very nice & friendly. next to it, you see my new necklace from swarovski;

bought it at a real bargain. heehee.

crazy idea from my uncle.

illegal. but we still did it. hee.

okay, gonna pack my stuffs & just rot my day at home.

good day everyone! (:

bloglovin' (:

2011-12-06T13:39:00.001+08:00

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tell me bout my brother.

2011-11-27T23:57:00.001+08:00

I guess I'll never understand why my brother is forever acting like an useless bastard, it's like he doesn't care if the house is dirty, if my dad works so hard for all bills. He just waste as much as he likes. YET, he is forever perfect in my mum's eye. While my mum often thinks that I'm only after my dad's money. How unfair.

ugly factor

2011-11-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

Not a diligent blogger cause this damn blog is driving me insane. Urghs!

two nights at orchard hotel (:

2011-11-23T23:42:00.001+08:00

photoediting

2011-11-12T20:13:00.001+08:00

I've been buying photo editing apps for my itouch. It's so addictive, I swear. I really love camera plus, it's so nice. Heehee. Now, some photos for you.

friendship or sinking ship

2011-11-07T23:00:00.004+08:00

friends? what's the for? sometimes, i realized myself sinking into deep thoughts over that question. actually, i started thinking when things has started to go wrong. i always thought no lame things can ever do to my friends & our circle. but, i guess i was so damn wrong.

P.S: phang, can you see this stupid irregular alignment. please fix for me before i go mad again. thank you, xx <3

I love daddy (:

2011-11-05T04:58:00.001+08:00

last october

2011-11-02T23:14:00.002+08:00

xinya's 21st birthday party, theme: black/red

site inspection at siloso beach resort

walking to raffles city shopping center, after footloose at cathay

just another day when i got so obsessed with myself & forced phang to take photo of me. but, her photography is like.. ehem..

anyway, just a lil' update. i'm feeling much better at work since the day my boss left for her sales call, 1st November. she'll be back on the 15 & disappear again for another two weeks or so. cheers to that! was so elated that i can pop a bottle of champagn & call for celebration. hey! i swear i'm not the only one who is calling for celebration, the whole office is. hehhs!

i was so depressed for the past one week, cause i thought singpost lost my item that i bought online. total of $50, not a big amount, but not small amount to me either! one piece belongs to phang & the other is mine. hoohooo! i got my items today, was so damn happy bout it. heehee.

on a side note, i've been trying to fix this friendship too. up to you if you wanna avoid. no one is judging you, no one ever did. what's with the 'not-replying-messages'? honestly.

rajah inn

2011-10-26T22:09:00.001+08:00

Loving mini steamboat like this! Hehhs.

cheers to 22!

2011-10-23T11:03:00.006+08:00

overdue post! this is all bout my 22nd birthday, well, i was away with my girlfriends.

before we left, i've gotten this present from shuxian. heehee.

with shuxian & faerie, waitin for check-in.

first meal when we reached genting & we thought that it was the best meal thru out the whole trip. coming up, you'll know what sucks. tsk.

thanks to both for these cakes. faerie bought 4 slice of cakes for me, just because she thought that they're so sweet-looking. hehhs!

day 2 morning (:

my favourite old town, die-die must eat!

as insisted by faerie to ride on this thing!

kenny roger! didn't know that they have baked potato there, so nice!

& it's movie time. we watched white snake & sorcerer. we bought the premier seats & it comes with one tub of popcorn, one drink & one chocolate bar only at RM17.00. hoohooo!

now, this sucks to the max. was so excited bout having steamboat, but totally sucks sucks sucks. this hotpot is at level 2, just above marrybrown. everything bout it, just sucks!

ended last night at genting off with card games, alcohol & talking nonsense..

i think i was quite amused by myself, so i burst out laughing!

proper photo for us.

kfc breakfast on the last day!

back to room to prepare for checking-out..

old town again!

in grassland coach..

this is my loots from genting. a leopard print scarf & a bag! i can say that i was forced to buy this bag because shuxian spoiled the one i had. was totally pissed at her! blah blah blah.

after all, i guess i had a good trip! surrounded by my loved ones! i'm thankful & feeling blessed because these two in particular doesn't judge me for who i'm. would love to visit genting again! hehhs.

anyways, i'm going to royal caribbean in december with shuxian & my entire family! i'm so excited cause the cruise is stopping at penang! cheers to holidays! AGAIN! have a good sunday!

Up to date

2011-10-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense."

what's with the seriousness?

2011-10-03T22:47:00.003+08:00

have you ever work with someone who is so serious? to an extend that she is expecting you to be the same? my partner at work is so serious, so serious. guess what's her age? only 20. but, she takes everything so seriously. & when i say serious, it means that she cannot let it go. every teenager just wanna have a lil' fun, be it at work or at anywhere else.

but, she seems like she got too much to bear on her shoulder & she is like constantly reminding herself that she cannot afford to make any mistake, not a single one. WORSE is, she wants me to be the same. honestly? she'll be very tense up, once she made a small mistake, as if the building is gonna collapse & she is gonna die & she cannot run.

how am i gonna work with such people? i don't understand. i wonder how's her life like. does she have any friends? if she does? what kind of friends? are her friends all like her? so tense up? if that's the case, her life must be so horrible. i'm beginning to show her sympathy. obviously, she is aging. & i swear she loves coffee more than bel does. goodness. i will never wanna be like her.

come on! life is short, just have fun.

Hello October!

2011-10-02T09:00:00.001+08:00

Had a simple & nice birthday celebration on the last day of September! Just having dinner with tatas & went in to USS for 30mins to get my present. Hmmm. & now I've got new baby, his name is Mort. Heehee!

This celebration was one week in advance, as my week was fully taken; all the way from Monday to Friday. Ahhhhh, why am I so busy? I need to slack my weekends away. Hate 'after-work' appointment. But, tomorrow is expectional!

another day

2011-09-27T22:37:00.001+08:00

just working & having fun (:

Insomnia

2011-09-21T23:44:00.001+08:00

I don't know if I still can hang on to this. It's driving me crazy. I cannot sleep almost every-night, trying to figure out the same old question marks that's bothering me. Sigh. I'm losing it alrdy. How long more can I hang onto it? Please, I need some guidance.

It's always the same old thing

2011-09-21T22:36:00.001+08:00

My life is so stressful. I cannot take it anymore. I'm losing sleep for all these, goodness. I'm on the verge of giving up..

No one is indispensable

2011-09-18T07:52:00.001+08:00

Have you ever thought that you'll lose someone so important to you? This person is like your soul. Well, I guess I had that feeling before & from that day onwards, I consistently remind myself not to rely on anyone. I don't like that feeling. It feels like you're been torn apart & you heart is breaking, you can literally feel the pain. It's so unbearable & you could cry for the rest of your life or just stare in daze in his/her memories.

I think it's torture, isn't? I'll never wanna feel like that for anyone..

carried away

2011-09-14T22:10:00.001+08:00

'when we first met, I didn't wanna get involve with anyone. I didn't even have the time or energy & I wasn't sure that I was ready for it. But, you were too good to me & I got swept away. & little by little, I found myself falling in love with you'

The Angel & The Devil

2011-09-11T23:41:00.001+08:00

I think I'm pretty stressed out over my workload. Sigh. I cannot imagine, I fear the arrival of tomorrow. You know, it's like you've two inner voice talking to you:

The Angel & The Devil.

The angel said: 'Just bear with it, life is like that. take it as experience learnt. Remind yourself constantly, not to become like her'.

Well, the devil side is so-freesia who is saying: 'You know what, bitch. Go fcuk yourself. Damn. You think you're the queen?!'

Hell yeah, I've gone insane. Totally.

Who are you to judge?

2011-09-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

How sweet would life be if no one seems to judge anyone at all? Or even compare them with someone else? Why do people even judge when they themselves are NOT even perfect at all?

Based on my own observation, I've realized that many people have their own flaws & mostly similar when they have the same traits:

1) A smart person will always end up being a introvert, serious lack of communication skills.
2) A pretty girl are normally a bimbo OR their life are always & forever screwed. You'll see them whinning in Facebook.
3) A slim girl will always have a problem with their teeth.
4) An extrovert will always be TOO LOUD.
5) A fat girl like me will always end up with limited choice of clothing.
6) A handsome dude will somehow end up being seen with another guy.

So what now? I think it's a fact. People just refused to admit & they will end discriminating each other. Well, I'm one asshole out there too.

Anyways, today I got so pissed at work. PISSED. I was extremely happy when my morning was exceptionally smooth, I've said that or felt that way too early. Fcuk. As a gesture of goodwill, I've opened that jinx mail when I'm supposed to go home? & as an act of kindness, I replied by telling you that we cannot reach all relevant people. YOU took that advantage of the efficiency that we always produced & insist on wanting a damn reply. That's your motherfcuking business. People, stop taking everything for granted. No one owes you anything.

For all I know, I did my best. Enough said.

just another weekend

2011-09-09T19:35:00.001+08:00

last weekend was at batam (:

polkadotie

2011-08-29T23:27:00.001+08:00

Hello, my new nails. I did it all by myself, cool or what? Heehee.

you've lost my respect

2011-08-26T23:26:00.005+08:00

national day at floating bay.

sunny saturday at zoo. now, spot the giraffe (:

fam trip to sentosa. please don't give me that wtf look. LOL.

& meeting up with my bff (:

my life have been pretty predictable these days. sleep work eat sleep work eat sleep work eat, boring will be a better term. i'm just so lazy to club or whatsoever, or even hang out with my friends. i wanna stay home & watch tv & just what'sapp my friends. hee. lazy bum.

i've got an issue to blog it out today. i'm pretty amused bout some of my friends recently, totally. all they could do is to promise the hell out of everything, for fun. despite knowing that whatever you've promised will be gone with the wind, people still can help it but expecting it to come true. or rather, expecting you to make it come true. you don't make everything sound like a piece of cake. tsktsktsk. you don't promise someone that that you'll go for a vacation with them, but you ended up giving excuses to push it all away. fyi, your reason are not valid because you still enjoy your life like as per normal. you know what, you make it worse by announcing it on the social world. sorry to say that you've lost my trust and respect. & i strongly believed that majority feels the same way too. it's either they cannot be bothered with you any longer, or they're just a coward to talk bout it. fullstop.

what should you do when your dreams are suffocating you?

2011-08-22T01:34:00.001+08:00

I can feel 'stress' popping out from my body cells, excuse me, it's from every single body cells. It's due to work, for sure. Probably, I'm a horrible slow learner. I cannot finish 10 quotations with 2hrs. Apparently, my teammate can. Which means, she can do 01 quotation within 7mins. I can't, I really can't.

Last week, was on the verge of giving up. Seriously. For one second, I thought of grabbing my bag & storm out of the office & never coming back again. I cannot cope, you know. I feel suffocated, I cannot breathe.

Well, I'm expected to be fast & accurate. Hmmm. That got me thinking, how to be fast & accurate when I've got absolutely no experience? I don't know what to do when they ask me to check my work & be fast at the same time? Doesn't checking requires time? I'm confused since 2nd week of work, already there for 2 months, I'm still as confused.

I've been pressing on, I don't wanna give up, honestly. This job is what I've been wanting to do, it's like my dream come true. But, what should I do when my dream is suffocating me? Sigh. I know I'm still left with a bit of tolerance. Just a bit more & I'm positive that I'll burst.

I'm not sleeping & I know the reason why. I've got so much quotations to do for tomorrow. Guess what? I've to spent my damn afternoon at Sentosa till night. At the thought of this, I'm so damn annoyed. Fcuk.

For now, I know that I do not wanna give up. But, who knows about tomorrow? Counseling, please.

In USS

2011-08-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

As the saying goes 'expect the unexpected'. It's right, you know. I'm like any other human being on the road, always always expecting something in return. Anyways, i've not expected anything from anyone since I left USS. That place was a total disaster. People take things for granted & yet, you can literally feel that coming thru their skin.

To everyone there, go fcuk yourself. Wake up your fcuking idea, open your damn eyes. No one fcuking owes anyone a living there. Those people there are still full of shit after so long. BTH. Tsktsktsk.

indispensable

2011-08-03T23:55:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, you got me thinking. How am I ever gonna live with you? Hmmm. Surprisingly you.

So What?

2011-07-31T22:03:00.004+08:00

I'm feelin so down. I don't like to do things that I don't like. So what if it's good for me? I don't wanna go thru all the ups & downs. So what if you're in your lowest point? I've tried to be there for you, but you're just pushing me away. So mean of you. I really hate it when people pretend to be okay. But, you can still feel that attitude from them. It's damn annoying. I mean when you're not okays, just say so. No big deal, everyone will have their bad day. When you say you're okays, you mean it.

My shoulder is aching, aching NNBCCB.

TGIF

2011-07-29T23:43:00.001+08:00

I've been so busy every single day of my life. For weekends, I'll just rot at home, like really rot. I'll do nothing, not even using my laptop. I'll sit around, sit around, listening to music & just nothing.

I don't like to talk bout work after working hours. It's not that I don't enjoy my work, I'm not someone who will share what happened at work, regardless of whatever job that I'm working.

Okays, I'm getting ready for my weekends. Goodnight my friends (:

shoes bags love

2011-07-20T23:05:00.001+08:00

I've got pretty good news to share recently. Not recently, probably yesterday or Monday. However, I've decided that nothing is worth sharing. My mood got totally ruined to the bottom.

I need to buy shoes bags, any people wanna join me? (:

lazy sunday

2011-07-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

It's nice when you've friends that works exactly the same shift like you. No more boring shit on weekends. I hate weekends thou, everywhere is flooded with people. Like big time flooded. So, I would rather spend my weekends off going to granny's, otherwise just at home, reading a book or do some handicraft.

I don't have a lot of good friends. Cause I don't see the need to. Probably, I just have very high standards for the friends that I'm keeping. I don't like to please the world. I used to bother a lot for my friends. But, now i don't & I don't want to. Currently, I've got friends that's going thru a major change in their life. I cannot accept it, so I've decided to stay away from those people instead.

Whatever & ever. Goodnight shuxian (:

IN JUNE.

2011-07-06T21:20:00.004+08:00

work has been good, like really good. i'm enjoying myself everyday, even if i'm super screwed with piles & piles of never-ending files to do.

photos time, cause i'm lazy to type even more.

bysi night. bea was really happy cause she bought what she really wanted.

sunday night. met serchin to talk after work.

sunday afternoon. it was karine's 5th birthday. her presents are all over her body. zen is so cute, as always.

shuxian bought me dessertcup to cheer me up last saturday. nice nice (:

last friday, dinner with my ex-colleagues. i still love bsg most.

thursday night with mag after work. just talking & sharing.

conrad hotel. totally forgotten that i brought the camera till the swimming pool & that's the last stop. stupid stupid stupid.

okays, goodnight wednesday. (:

when I started working

2011-06-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

I've been working. Started work since last thursday. It's like typical office hour, weekends off blah blah blah. I'm blessed with a good working partner, but a strict boss. I can't have the best of both world. Somehow, my boss reminded me of JT. Short, petite, always smiling & joining in those laughing moments; however when they're angry, run. I cannot believe that I actually miss JT.

I'm happy there, at this moment. I feel satisfied everyday at 1800hrs, that's because I've been productive. One best thing is that I don't feel sleepy lunch. Hehhs! I cannot concentrate when I'm sleepy. I really like my job.

I've been meeting shuxian after work for dinner, hanging out at malls/starbucks. We spent the evening like telling each other what we did the whole day. My good friend, please talk more. Okays, won't deny that there's improvement. You can always share the world with me. (:

I ensure that I sleep at least 7hrs every night. Ive got work dinner after 1800hrs tomorrow. Please end early, please.

Goodnight (:

stupidity or expectations?

2011-06-22T00:20:00.001+08:00

Have you ever felt like an idiot? Have you ever felt like you've contributed everything to anyone in your life? Have you ever done so much for a particular person & just an insignificant action/words breaks your heart like into infinity pieces? Have you ever felt like a fcuking fool that goes around helping people & all you get in return is the whole world against you?

I've been feeling like that recently. Worse, people that you'll never expect turns to you & tell you to mind your own business. Whoever created this line 'never expect anything in return', is bullshit. Even though, you don't wanna expect anything at all; somehow you'll still expect something out of it. Like a 'thank you'? Don't say that's courtesy. I don't think so. Why are you expecting a 'thank you' when you're the one who wanted to help? How stupid can human being gets? It's everyone's right to choose if they wanna say 'thank you' or not. Why am I so stupid not to figure this out?

I've given my best attention/effort to this particular group of people. It's a shame to announce it here that they took it for granted, honestly for granted. Majority have the mindset that it's my obligation. What's disappointing is that some of them started telling me to mind my own business. I've only picked out the key points. I've been a saint for the past 17months. How noble.

I'm very disappointed. Probably, disappointment is what you get back when you've expectations. I've learnt & I'm not going to allow myself to fall right back into disappointment anymore.

What hurts the most, was being so close.

This story is too heart-breaking to continue...

This post is a reminder for myself to stop being a busybody.

Goodnight world.

I never had a dream come true

2011-06-17T00:20:00.001+08:00

Hello. I cannot sleep. I'm excited. I never had a dream come true, however I cannot believe my ears when I received the call. I was stunned for a moment or so. I wish myself well. Not gonna reveal it here. Okays, I should really try hard to sleep. P is alrdy sleeping.

Goodnight.

friendship

2011-06-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

"When they finished laughing they were on their way to being not just friends, but the dearest of friends, the sort of friends whose lives are shaped by the friendship."
- Spindle’s End, Robin McKinley

With All My Love

2011-06-14T17:15:00.001+08:00

Had dinner with my ex-colleagues, good catching up.

Met 小龙女 for dinner last Saturday, good talk too. Okays, going to watch seven sisters now & cook dinner. (:

Afternoon Tea

2011-06-12T01:37:00.001+08:00

Peach nectar blend tea & Mixed fruit tart from fruit paradise (:

Lousy

2011-06-09T01:17:00.001+08:00

I'm feelin really lousy now. Firstly, I think it's because I'm in pain, my cramp is really bad. I could just stone the whole morning on my bed. Secondly, it's just.. I'm so hurt just by thinking of that. I'm just not the one, I've the urge to scream 'WHY SO?!?!' I'm checking-in to heartbreak hotel. Anyone? I'm feeling really really really lousy, you cannot imagine that extend. Sigh. Anyways, the atmosphere is quite negative these days. I feel like everyone around me have something on their mind, they're like so occupied in their thoughts. Okays, the feeling is weird. Goodnight.

2011-06-01T22:21:00.003+08:00

hello people.
that was bea's birthday celebration at Prive (Keppel Bay)
the food was average, not really that nice; but the price was .. whoo.. quite expensive for spaghetti. tasted like pastamania to me thou. hehhs.
i had chilli crab linguine, spicy but not very.
& bea ordered this scallop wrapped with bacon, yummy.
not cheap too.
for that plate below cost: $16. worth trying. it's nice.

happy 21st, bea (:

we went to butter factory the night before.

my leg is aching, especially my muscles.
& a lot of plaster on my feet too. arghs.
heels do kill. ouch. at least 6 plasters, yupp yupp 6. (that's the minimum.)

will post a photo of my beautiful bed soon.
goodnight!

2011-05-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

unexplainable misery.

TAIWAN, TOUCH YOUR HEART

2011-05-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

went to taiwan from 4th may to 9th may.

i had a good six days of fun!

& rest after i'm back, i don't know which vein of mine went wrong.

& i'm jobless till now. hehhs.

okays, photos! (:

day 1 at 228 garden, just slacking around there before going to night market.

day 2: started the day off at some cheena museum, okays, the whole thing bout this museum is to see this cabbage. ahh, fcuk it, go google yourself if you wanna go.

had sushi for lunch. the sushi is so damn cheap!

one plate for NT30 = SGD1.30, regardless of whatever plate

even the chawanmushi. i miss sushi to the max.

i like to irritate shuxian. hehhs.

& we went to fisherman's wharf (:

it's so beautiful.

day 3: started the day going to taipei 101.

longchamp, mad cheap over there!

i love dongdong. <3

lunch at Ding Tai Fung. price (Y), food (YY), service (YYY)

day 4: we went to sunflower garden in the morning, not any tourist would risk their itinerary there. we were so adventurous. i was quite frightened in the beginning. everything was worth it (:

& dinner at the toilet restaurant.

if you're gonna order their hotpot, the serving is enough for two.

don't order 'Japanese Milk Hotpot', even thou it's chef recommendation.

unless you're a milk lover, real milk lover. otherwise, you're gonna get so sick of the taste awhile. awhile. i really mean awhile.

day 5: supposed to go jiu fen, but we skipped that. cause we didn't want to.

went back to dan shui & bought amazing caps!

hey, it was my best buy! (:

day 6: went back to taipei 101, cause my dongdong wants to buy longchamp!

& i bought my dad a cardholder. hehhs. (:

we had one last round of sushi & went to the airport.

i love taiwan so much, you cannot imagine.

love everything there, their people, their culture, their food.

i'm going next year. confirm? double confirm.

anyone?

meeting bbf tmr!

goodnight!

J O B L E S S

2011-05-19T01:15:00.003+08:00

sigh. i wonder why do i've to approach here & there?

why are there people who will still do it when they know that it's not right?

why why why & so many never-ending why?

i was feelin lost from no where since one week ago.

it's not bout being jobless, it's bout what happened was right or wrong, i was confused for one moment.

i tendered my resignation & was asked to leave immediately when i'm supposed & absolutely prepared to serve my notice blah blah blah.

see the problem now?

dear friends, no worries.

i'm much better now, i've got help from all over the world.

i have to admit that i do feel a tinge of happiness when all my friends started texting me & asking me what's wrong & if i need any help, please tell them anytime.

i want to hug all of you now <3

you know what makes me even happier, i've spent time with all my loved ones during this period; my bbf, bestgirlfriend, family blah blah blah.

i never thought that jobless would feel so damn good!

goodnight (:

2011-05-17T15:17:00.001+08:00

i'm jobless now. will blog bout it & bout my taiwan trip soon (:

magnum, zouk, battlestar galactica

2011-04-25T10:31:00.002+08:00

went out with sheros last wednesday den dinner at chomp chomp!

zouk on friday night, was super exhausted.

before zouk was at my granny's place!

figure the photos out yourself, all my favourite ones!

heeheehee

battlestar galactica <3

i'm going taiwan next wednesday, excited to the max.

RED

2011-04-19T00:00:00.003+08:00

so tired. sigh.

whenever i go to darkroom these days, there's always someone who will ask me 'are you sick?'

den i'll turn & look back, they will continue 'you look sick, so pale'.

blah blah blah.

i'm fine at my own outlet, i'm just so sick of darkroom. eeek.

hehhs. celebrated bgff's birthday last week. bought her a holga toy camera & it cost me $160, shared with chappy. phew!

alex, chappy & bgff.

i'm so in love with my red bag. <3

i got some more things to blog bout, but i'm way too lazy.

tomorrow is my 5th day of work, kill me now.

sigh.

2011-04-11T23:26:00.001+08:00

now, i'm confused.

2011-04-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

I never thought that this would happen to me.
Now, I'm in it. I'm afraid, afraid of everything.
I'm very paranoid. What should I do now?
Sigh.

2011-04-02T23:57:00.001+08:00

whatever to you, you know. -.-

i miss you

2011-03-31T23:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i miss jack.

i miss her nonsense & stupid lil' messages.

oh well, bbf is touring europe.

i bet she's havin a good time, i swear her photos are super gorgeous.

have fun, B! (:

hehhs.

goodnight.

my bestfriend

2011-03-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

i miss you ♥

battlestar galactica

2011-03-16T09:31:00.004+08:00

i'm so lazy to talk bout my life these days.
i'm quite active flippin thru classified thou.
but, i promised someone that i'll stop flippin for now till may.
whoohooo!
i tell you what, jobstreet are super addictive, i cannot stop.

park is open till 9pm for the whole of march holidays.
which means i work 12hrs a day.
so tired that i fall asleep after i'm done cleaning up.
annoying much, cannot even be bothered to on my lappy.

i'm finding itouch 4 polkadot cover.
anyone, please look out for me, i'm beggin you.
i haven't gotten my itouch, but i'll get it. serious.

i'm going to taiwan in may, probably batam again on the 2nd week, after i'm back.
i haven't seen fae since january.
her birthday is coming. time to call alex.

what else? what else?
i'm gonna cook today after so long, den i need to do schedule & wait for bbf to come online.

battlestar galactica <3

i should not take myself too seriously today.
okays, i won't.

batam & saleha's farewell

2011-03-08T10:43:00.007+08:00

went batam with bea & shuxian two weeks back.
was too lazy to blog bout it.
we stayed at ihotel, the hotel is good. (Y)
okays, photos.

at A&W, childhood memories. hehhs.
& i don't know what's so funny, shuxian. -.-

MY BEST BUYS!!!

...
...
...

SANITARY PADS & ...
we bought alot alot more the next day.
anyways, shuxian & i bought like four packets only on day 1,
so the rest all belongs to bea.

BLACKBERRY COVERS!!!
i was going insane when i saw the number of designs they've.
but, still below are my hot favourites. hehhs.

which colour do you like? i love all! (:

okays, this is after breakfast when we're back inside the hotel, waitin for pick-up.
we took ALOT of photos.

you'll soon know the reason why did i get so bored & started lookin down, continue scrollin..

i've got near to 20 photos of her, posing like that.. her hair & her shades. wah lau.

& next, beatrice lim for all my readers. (:

3rd March, saleha's farewell.
all present, except for roving leader.
well oh well..

this is saleha. someone that i really love talkin to.
gonna miss her alot. <3

i miss their presence at work.

with lots of love, darkroom + rovers + bsg.

okays, i'm with bsg now. new team of people.
only there for week 1, see how it goes.
i like what i'm doin there for now.

goodluck, freesia.

2011-03-04T23:26:00.001+08:00

if only i can take you far far away..

you haven't seen the last of me

2011-02-24T23:12:00.001+08:00

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

WHOO!

2011-02-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

i swear i had the longest week ever.
was deducted $30 off my incentive, guess what i did?
i ordered my boss to sweep the floor. ahhh, JOKING.
using handphone on the floor.
a uncle took a beautiful photo of me using it. -.-
he took 3 photos & 1 photo cost me $10.
& was told that during my off days, my members was using their phones.
butterfly sister said that i did not set a good example. oh please, get me a damn tie & a fcukin badge that says: 'prefect.'
well, fcuk you to the bottom pit of hell.
L A M E .

HAPPY V'DAY 2011.

2011-02-16T09:35:00.004+08:00

i spent my v'day at work.
lonely lonely lonely. jokin. hahhs.
okays, i woke up in the mornin to prepare korean rice cake & udon adobo for my team.
because i've got two 花痴心 workin with me on that day.
has been askin if they wanna get off on v'day & both of them said no.
hahhs.
& so, i received my first v'day present from my crush.
AWWWWW..
jokin. picture below.

i've got the big pink panther from oni & the tiny one holdin banana from dragon girl.
hehhs.
was quite unexpected from dragon girl.
cause oni alrdy said it out so loudly last week: 'ive bought you a pink panther, will give you on a significant day.' -.-
hahhs. okays la, appreciated it. (:

& i've got this very cute-lookin dino cookie from sweetie pie szeyee & 小白菜夫人.

ehem. now i would like to introduce to my readers some important people at my work:

by the way, this photo was taken on v'day itself, ST came back to help out for the event.

okays now..

*drum rollin*

(R-L): 大花痴aka小白菜夫人，小花痴 aka oni, man in green: ST, 小龙女, yours truly. (:

hahhs.
they brought so much laughters into my life.

okays, happy day.
gonna meet up with ssp.
need to change money for batam next weekend & pick up my vouchers.
wheeee!

HAPPY CNY 2011! (:

2011-02-11T10:01:00.007+08:00

happy cny everyone.
i was workin on cny eve & went to butter factory after dinner.
my mother was givin me a grumpy face thou.
blah blah blah.
i was on morning shift the next day, which is the day 1 of cny.
urghs, sucks. i was sleepin all over at work.
the pictures below are all from day 2 of cny. hahhs.

butterfactory on cny eve.

day 2 of cny, they're my family.

my lovely cousin & i (:
okays, the one in blue is my cousin.
it's like a cny routine since young, the three of us will always take alot of photos.

this year was quite special.
we managed to meet up with all relatives at cantonment.
karine was irritatin me: 'jiejie, take photo of me.'
while zen was makin noise when karine & i started clickin without her: 'meimei.. meimei.. meimei.. also want.. why no meimei'
TSK.

i thought this photo below was pretty funny.
hahhs. lookin at the expression of karine.

okays, i'm so bored now.
i'm forcing my mum to help me get a bed.
but, she's still on the phone since morning.
whatever to her whatever big business.
hehhs.

it's my off day, i'm done-ed with schedule. whoohooo!
anyways, burlesque was damn good. catch it if you haven't. (:

have a good day, freesia!

♥♥♥
dear bbf, hope you're good.
get well soon. miss you. (:
♥♥♥

FLYING KISSES

2011-01-28T23:54:00.004+08:00

workin workin workin.
workin has been so irritatin these days that i wanna start pullin people's hair.
tsk. fcuk.
*shakin head* sigh
cny week is gonna be tedious, cannot imagine workin from 0900hrs to 2130hrs.
but, at least i'm workin with lovable people.

i had cny team dinner last week.
was quite weird. see the group photo.
ya, the whole group of us just stood there & took pictures.

i don't know why every dinner with maryam.
she'll always ask me to do this.
otherwise, the other way round.
okays la okays la. love you too, maryam.
xoxo

okays, i've mailed a letter for bbf. ♥
i hope she don't scream, well, i drew somethin really really ugly.
whoops.

i love all my friends, i hope they love me the way i love them. (:

HELLO CNY!

2011-01-23T00:06:00.003+08:00

hello.
i did my own wardrobe one week back.
was busy going everywhere to look for suitable curtains.
i've been to ikea, giant, carrefour, finally.. settled it it spotlight.
was so happy.
hey, curtains not easy to find hor.
i like the colour, add a lil' mysterious feelin' to my room.
bought a new cabinet for cny.

here's the photo of my new curtain. (:
this is my lil' corner, my aromatherapy is actually at the other end,
but i purposely shift it next to the blue wall.
cause the green stool looks cute.

at the other side of my wardrobe,
my cork board is there, photos of all my love ones & my weekly schedule for darkroom.
was so excited, have been using 3M hooks, until my uncle came & he drilled a hole for me!
i was mad happy. :D

went cheenatown shoppin with huahua last week, it's a cny thingy for us annually.
i know i've to take a photo of her backview.
the 1st time that she's carryin my stuffs for me.
cause my face was green, the damn corn was killin me. oh well.

love you so much, huahua.
hahhs.

goodnight.

oh well, bullshit.

2011-01-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

no matter how hard i tried, i just can't get it right.

been busy with cny preparation,
hangin out with huahua.

i don't know why, i cannot settle down properly these days.
i think i might have given myself a lil stress.
i've been worryin day & night bout what am I gonna do after taiwan.
i don't wanna waste any time, serious.
i'm near to sufferin from depression.
should i continue with a degree, take my tourist guide? or what?
please give me some guidance, i beggin for it. hell.
why do living in singapore have to be so stressful?

i'm sad. ):

(:

2011-01-08T13:02:00.003+08:00

my dad wanted a shirt, i said i'll get him a Gucci cardholder.
den he said maybe Prada will be better.
however, now he change his mind & said he wants LV.
-.-

OXOX

2011-01-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

i've been blushin so easily these days.
i wasn't embarrassed bout anythin, i guess i was laughin too hard.
hehhs.
at work, was swallowin down quite a bit of stuffs.
i do wonder if the problem lies with myself & i've concluded that i'm the one.

was thinkin where should i move on to ever since classified became my bestfriend on 3/1/11.
sigh.

i don't know what else i've to say, quite speechless recently.

THE START OF 2011, HILARIOUS.

2011-01-01T12:45:00.004+08:00

HAPPY FCUKIN 2011!

i spent the night at USS, the countdown sucks.
when the clock strikes 0000hrs, there's a second of awkward silence among the crowd.
probably technical fault or whatever. not as happenin as what i did last year.
last year was nice, just the going home part. cause i walked home from boat quay at 0230hrs in the morning.

as i was watchin the fireworks last night at USS, i made a silly wish to myself.
heeheehee.
i must make it come true by the end of 2011.

wishin my family & happy friends, good health, more money & be contented.

♥♥♥

L O V E .

2010-12-29T10:48:00.003+08:00

the night before christmas eve, was with huahua (:

2010 gone in few days time. TSK.

anyways, i've been workin like a bitch recently.
my store is always so crowded, so madly crowded.
i'm havin chromakey-phobia.
try takin photos for continuously 2hrs, you'll end up hidin at one corner. apparently, that was what happened to me. hahhs.

you know what, i honestly doesn't give a fcuk to all who is tryin to outcast me everywhere, i've come to conclude that i'll never understand dog's language. HAHA.
birds of the same feather fcuks together.
& next, to a friend of mine. it doesn't matter what happened between us, clear enough that we doesn't really click well. nothin happened, we just drifted apart. i hate to admit that i'm bothered by it, but it's only for awhile. i'm good now.

:)

going out in awhile.

:D

2010-12-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

merry christmas to all my fans out there.

was off on 23rd Dec & 24th Dec.
what motivated me to go to work today is to look at my sales figure.
i need to count, plus, minus, divide the number of days to end of the month.
i was extremely elated when i saw those digits that matches exactly with my target. :D

i'll blog properly next week.
oh, i promised to start makin food for dinner on my off days.
let me see my mood.

2010-12-24T00:26:00.001+08:00

dear bbf, i'm thinkin if i'll mail it together with cheena new year card.
you know, you need some cheena thingy there.
heeheehee.

BBF

2010-12-23T11:15:00.002+08:00

i forgot to mail B's christmas card. tsk.
hahhs. i'm sorry, bbf. heeheehee.
i'm thinkin real hard what should i do bout it. (:

SHREK

2010-12-23T01:22:00.006+08:00

WISDOM TOOTH

2010-12-18T12:38:00.003+08:00

extraction of wisdom tooth. no big deal.
but, that fcuked up private clinic charged me $230.
& i've to go back next week to extract the next one.
wah lau eh, i print money izzit?
i'm going to polyclinic, even thou if it's travellin from tiongbahru to woodlands.
blehs.

actually, all the while.. i've got the urge to extract all my teeth & put dentures, seriously.

GENTING, HOW WONDERFUL.

2010-12-15T11:40:00.004+08:00

went for a 3D2N gentin trip with my family.
i'm so bored there, only went to the casino twice.
& most of the time, i was shoppin.
& i happily spent all my money away. hahhs.
came out within 15mins, anyways, i won RM30.
cannot stand watchin those idiots gamblin their life assets away.

spot the twin tower! :D

they're my cousins, i'm the shortest among all.
sad to say. ):

if i've the money, i'll really franchise old town.
whoohooo! i love old town & my dad. (:

miss kawaii-neh, hehhs.
she was so nosiy, cryin & cryin.
okays, my fault too. i irritate her to the max.

jia & i. (:
my best cousin forever, gonna use her itinerary for taiwan!
yeah!

i just paint my nails. (:
need to change now, movie at 2pm.

WHATEVER.

2010-12-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

honestly speakin, you think i care if you create a visible line?

*rollin eyes*

2010-12-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

I don't like it whenever my brother says that I failed my O levels & I cannot get into local polytechnics.
I don't like it whenever my sister switch off the light, when I'm usin computer right infront of her.
I don't like it when my brother switch off wireless without informin me.
I don't like it when they will complain & make me feel like everythin is my fault & my mother will scold me almost everytime.
I don't like it when they treat me as invisible whenever my parents are travellin.

Most of the time, I feel very lonely at home. very lonely. There's no one I can talk to.

Oh well, it hurts.

HUNGRY.

2010-12-07T08:22:00.004+08:00

i slept at 0100hrs cause i was too hungry to sleep.
i woke up at 630hrs, feelin hungry.
my day 4/4 over soon! i'm going to gentin tmr, haven't even pack anythin yet.
oh well.

♥♥♥

2010-12-05T00:16:00.001+08:00

awww.. i'm meltin.

♥♥♥

RAPUNZEL

2010-12-01T00:18:00.001+08:00

rapunzel was awesome, the 3D animations was damn good.
i was impressed with the lantern scenes, it was so beautifully animated.
i was wow-ing thru out the movie. so nice.
what a fairytale.

i've got the beautiful rapunzel cup.

iphone 4 is quite amazin, i like to use the front camera thou.
but, i find it hard to hold when you've to take photos.
very annoyin. i don't know how to tell you, but try holdin a iphone to click photos.
played with her iphone for awhile & i got sick of it.
took out my berry to hold instead. hahhs.

gonna meet her after gentin, because she bought somethin so special for me in vietnam.
i couldn't stop starin at her & that item when she passed it to me.
*rolling eyes*
gonna do it together at her place, will post it up when i'm done with it.

HAPPY DECEMBER!

XOXO

MY ONLY WISH

2010-11-30T11:30:00.001+08:00

november is gonna come to an end, many of my colleagues are leavin.
some are leavin for good, some just decided to stone at home till whenever they like it.
takin into consideration of my plans next year, i've decided to stay put & be good.
because i wanna go to hongkong & taiwan with bea, china with my dad. & most importantly, my tourist guide liciense.
my current workplace allows me to go off early for classes & also approves my holiday leaves.
furthermore, it's hard to get a job during this festive season.
i'm quite excited to spend my christmas eve & new year eve with my team, bet USS will be totally cool.

i'm gonna buy a fujifilm camera. hell yeah, it's shockin for myself to know that i'm interested in fujifilm cameras too.
honestly speakin, i'm amazed by the functions. check F300EXR out. (:
i can buy one more unit at a very cheap price. text me if you want.

i'm going to genting the next coming week with my family this time.
i'm happy cause it's with my granny. believe it or not, i've decided to go because of my sengkang granny. she loves me so much & i recalled how i used to beg my mum to allow me to stayover at granny's side. i used to cry so hardly whenever my mum said no. hahhs.
i've grew up & have not been spendin time with her, i feel bad.
on the other hand, i'm not excited cause i'm sharin room with karine, that rascal. she is so annoyin & she's a crybaby. tsk. she's always askin for food food food, touchin my berry.. etc.
i still xoxo her. (:

gonna catch Rapunzel with sweetie pie at 3pm.

XOXO

ONE

2010-11-29T21:49:00.001+08:00

i had enough of everything & you. period.

GREETINGS FROM DUBAI

2010-11-26T20:41:00.004+08:00

i've got presents from dubai! very cool, eh. (:
met bbf for 20mins & she was wearin her shades, how cute.
i didn't study what's with the jelly beans at first & i don't know what was bbf blah-ing & i only heard: '...i hope you get the rotten egg!'
after i had my lunch, i took the box out to play around. after five mins of studyin it, i was like 'OH I SEE, ROTTEN EGG..' -.-
shuxian ate pencil shavings & i had coconut.
the next round, shuxian had coconut & i had the moldy cheese. eee.

look at this, so sickenin. the colours are exactly the same,
peach & vomit had the same colour. rotten egg & buttered popcorn.

i'm going to prank some people tmr. HAHA.

my flu is really bad & my beautiful voice sounds totally wrong.
bullshit.

Terrified

2010-11-25T21:20:00.001+08:00

LIKE IT'S THE LAST NIGHT

2010-11-19T00:12:00.004+08:00

come to think of it, i've ruined quite a number of things with my own decisions, being very stubborn, my sensitivity & insensitivity.. alot alot more..
i'm not a nice person, i guess.

BLACKBERRY TORCH

2010-11-18T23:48:00.005+08:00

oh my god.. it's in singapore.

i want the white one, go google it.

SHAKE IT UP, LOVE,

2010-11-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

i'm so vexed.. & stress too.
i can feel that my hair is droppin, otherwise i'm going to pull it.. continuously.

DEEP

2010-11-09T20:06:00.002+08:00

after so long, i'm feelin quite lost.

IT HAD TO BE YOU

2010-11-08T11:13:00.001+08:00

"She understands when I talk to her, which I do every night. She keeps awake for me; I tell her about my day's work, read her favourite poems. I told her, I would try and keep you company for as long as I can" - MM Lee Kuan Yew

♥♥♥

2010-11-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

THE DARK NIGHT

2010-11-04T11:23:00.001+08:00

"you know you've read a good book when you turn the last page & feel a
little as if you have lost a friend."
- Paul Sweeney

i can totally relate to this quote cause i'm always feelin like that since i started readin when i was in primary 5.
there's one book that i'll never forget in my life, it was so bad that i wanna tear that book into half & burn it. but, i couldn't stop myself from readin it, it's nice. i couldn't rip it apart because it's not my book. hahhs.
the title is: Rape of NanKing
the contents were so real & the killing were gruesome & disgusting.
enough said.

SUMMER, KIND OF WONDERFUL

2010-10-30T22:25:00.005+08:00

out with huahua for a day & she went off to meet Gabriel.
we went to haji lane & to scape for flea market.
i bought my berry a NAVY SEIDIO casin & it's only $8. it should cost more than that, well who cares if it's fake. i love it so much.

ANNA SUI

i've realised that if there's one thing that i wanna operate on & that's my sickenin eyes, that irritatin small eye. my right eye is small, while my left one is at an acceptable size. hmphs.
i used to stick eye lashes few years back. i supposed myself still a professional. (Y)
there's a difference in my eyes when i sticked fake lashes on it.
my small eye isn't as obvious.
you see my photos:

this are the polaroids taken today.
look at my ridiculously small eye, this is sad.
i was playin with my polaroids, i covered my small eye & show huahua that: 'i'm lookin gorgeous with big eye, hor?'
den i covered my big eye & ask: 'i'm lookin cute, yea?'
den i removed my finger & asked: 'i looked hideous, isn't it? my love. the mixture of big & small eyes. sigh.. it's so obvious. i'm sad.'
& huahua just went 'hahaha..' ignoring me. blehs.

this was like 3 years back, can't tell my small eye, right?
okays, maybe a bit, but not as obvious, isn' it? it's like well-balanced.
hehhs.
plastic face. heeheehee.

nowadays, when you walk down the street of orchard; everyone is equally plastic.
at least, i don't 'wayang' myself that much.
whenever i've the mood, only foundation, eyeliner & mascara + abit of blusher.
not as bad, right? please tell me yes, cause if you were to say otherwise, i'll tell you to mind your own business.
i'm not someone who likes to pour make-up on my face, i think that whenever i don't have make-up on, i'll look super weak & restless.
i hate those kind of effect. some girls won't even leave their house without make-up.
heeheehee. i'm so much better.

i still like this the best, no make-up, only baby powder & nothing else.
clean & clear.

i'm hungry now. what should i eat?
boos!

THE RIGHT ONE TO MAKE YOU FEEL RIGHT

2010-10-29T15:58:00.003+08:00

i really think i rocks the hell out of my own life!

LOVE KICK STARTS AGAIN

2010-10-29T01:16:00.003+08:00

because of halloween, i haven't xx right after monday
feelin' kind of nabei-licious.
-___-

i'm waitin for BBF to get home.
i volunteered myself to wait for her.
i'm not complainin, just talkin.
boos!

IT'S NOT HIM, THAT'S WHY.

2010-10-28T00:09:00.003+08:00

i think ST cannot imagine how upset i'm now, with the schedule for tmr.
i've got 5 manpower includin me, he put 3 on off tmr.
& i'm left with 1+1.
i'm tryin not to blame him, but i cannot.
i understand how hard it is to plan a weekly team schedule.
i've alrdy tried my best to help to talk to those girls, they agreed what.
but, end up? he is always doin the same old thing, same old thing.
well, he thought that this reason: 'oh, i'm there..' is gonna solve it all off.
oh please, ST, i hate this reason of yours.
it's gettin more & more sickenin.. totally.
why are you always the Mr. Nice? & i'm gettin all the arrows when i'm just doin somethin that you're supposed to do? i'm not supposed to be the one who always tell them: 'you cannot do this, ST doesn't have the heart to tell you, so i've to do it.'
i'm supposed to assist the fcuk out of you, i'm supposed to convince them what you're doin is right.
you know what, i cannot even convince myself now.
i hate you for all this fcuk shit.